The intensity of feelings harkens back to the beginning of the time when my period started. There's a great reason most teenage girls are portrayed as moody and bitchy. During my time, I would feel on edge and vulnerable and not understand why.
Well, now I know why and I'm annoyed that most of the time I'm doing damage control in my own mind. For example, if the dishes are in the sink and dirty left by anyone else, I'm furious. Seriously angry. This anger is followed by a bafflement that anyone would be so selfish as to do something they know would annoy me. Yeah. Not fun to be in my head as this whirlwind of emotions swirl.
The healthy part of this present process is my ability to step back, take a breath, and realize that this too shall pass. Sigh. As I begin the process of slowing down and stopping breast feeding, I'm hoping my body doesn't offer me an all out riot of screaming hormones... it will. So until the storm passes, I thank all of you who have to sit it out with me.
Copyright 2011 Heather Corwin