So when do I get a break? To minimize the stress, I try to get bodywork. And, as cliche as it sounds, I need to do yoga or dance or some sort of physical release to maintain a semblance of wellness in my mind AND body. They're one. So when I wake up in the middle of the night because my neck hurts, chances are my life is over-full and I'm stressed about something.
What's odd is that there is a phenomenon that happens when I get stressed and I see this same pattern all over the place: when I'm stressed, I stop doing the very things that would make me feel better (like yoga). That's an odd thing to do, but I think I do that because I want to believe I have control over my life (which is a myth anyway). If I stop doing some things (which I can control), I will then feel better about my life.
This is the part where I just have to throw in the towel and say that nothing I'm doing in my life is under life and death circumstances. I have things I enjoy to do, things I am responsible for doing, but life will go on whether or not I think I can control it. Here's where I'd like to write a sunny solution for my problem, but I don't have one. Sigh. I just have to live through it and this too shall pass.
Copyright 2013 Heather Corwin